One of my main problems was a fear of having “no future” and I carefully guarded my savings with terror. Since Shen Qi I have invested into the possibility of having a healthy, successful and inspiring life.
When I first came to Shen Qi and Aiping Wang Fulepp’s teaching I was very lost in life. I was always inspired to be useful and dreamed of helping society in some way, i.e. working with young people with problems or people on the street who had lost hope. I knew I could offer my enthusiasm but I didn’t how to commit myself to one person or idea. I always ended up doing nothing, but talking great philosophy. I never had a job for more than 6 months and usually became bored very quickly.
I wandered and travelled searching for the key to make me happy. Playing music on the street served me for a while, but winter and the same old songs crushed my spirit. I searched harder and faster and grew colder and more bitter, becoming more and more afraid of people, the harshness of life, the injustice and the ever-looming grey future, which oozed from inside somewhere where I didn’t want to look.
Eventually something pulled the plug and I became physically sick suffering from ulcerative colitis (a condition that the hospital told me was incurable and eventual colostomy was inevitable after loads of steroids). I had given up trying and depression saturated everything. Soon I was unable to eat and eventually I couldn’t even walk. I had no choice but to learn how to live.
Shen Qi found me in my own village where I landed at home after travelling. I learned how to relax, and to be more honest about what is really happening in my life rather than what I’d chosen to believe – that I had it all worked out and it’s just the rest of the planet that’s screwed! I also learned how to move more naturally with life rather then against it.
My health has now improved so much that I am working harder and longer and more constantly that I ever have in my life before. One of my main problems was a fear of having “no future” and I carefully guarded my savings with terror. Since Shen Qi and Aiping Wang Fulepp I’m inspired with possibility of having a healthy, successful and inspiring life and I will work with people in the future, helping them discover how to release their problems, be creative and enjoy an expansive and bright life!
